Randomness

I just feel like writing, I do not have a topic, so this is going to be pretty random. I love to listen to music this is the video of a song I've been feeling lately.


Oh and I cant forget Jamie (he just dont know) Foxx.


I just got outta class and it is snowing and ish, cold as heck and im not happy about it. I also straightened my hair last night and everytime I do it snows or rains. It makes me mad.


Yea so taking a break from all the pics. Oh did I mention Christmas break is coming up soon? I am freaking excited. Although I have no idea what I am getting people but I know more what I want. Oh and my birthday on the 27th I want to do it big. Dave and Busters, Club (Voodoo Lounge in Harrah's Casino), Go out to eat(Cheesecake Factory), Plaza, and of course drink it up!
In other news I have an on campus job in the Registrar's office and we have to be back early from break. On the friday before class starts on January 9th it sucks. Yea well im getting kinda hungry so I will hit this up later. Holla.

Breathless Memories

So I had an ok Thanksgiving. Nothing too exciting, ya know the usual. My aunt cooked a plethora of items, we ate, then I went to my boyfriends and ate there. I went to the movies to see Role Models and it was kinda funny... whispering eye he heh. Another fun thing I did over break was get sick. It started with a sore throat and has now become a full blown cold. It sucks yes. Oh and it's snowing which REALLY sucks. I hate snow...really just cold weather in general. But on the upside this semester is almost over and Christmas break is upon us... 2 weeks. AND... my birthday is in 26 days....heck yea 21. In other news I found one of my homies from high school on myspace. And I had heard that her cousin (who I was also cool with) died but I couldn't believe it until I saw her myspace name that read: "RIP Marcha Teaz Semens..." I was floored to finally have the reality of it in my face. I continued to look at the pics of Jennifer at the funeral and the pics of the good times they'd had. And always when something like this happens to someone you know it always makes you think. It's crazy for me to think I used to see this person, touch this person, and interact with this person and now I will never see them, touch them or interact with them EVER again. And when I think of this person from now on they will be nothing more than a lifeless form void of breathe, life, or mobility. This person ceases to exist. No new memories or experiences...NOTHING. It's almost amazing to me the finality of death. But life goes on. You just live in your moment but when that moment ends, the world continues to spin. Dictionary.com defines death this way: "the act of dying; the end of life; the total and permanent cessation of all the vital functions of an organism." I think it's the permanent part that kills (no pun intended) me. I think I will have to continue on this topic later because many other questions arise in my mind about but this blog would be way too expansive if I were to discuss all of them. And because I feel like I've said enough for now I will end it here.

Let's Just Jump Right In

I am not easily amused. This is somewhat of a problem in my relationship with my boyfriend of 2 years. We argue because he is always content watching tv, playing madden, or just sitting around. Me on the other hand I want to do different stuff sometimes and I get bored and tell him, "Lets do something im bored." You see the problem is he is perfectly content doing whatever it is he is doing so when I keep telling him I'm bored he gets annoyed not only because of that but because I never have any ideas of what else to do. I mean I don't exactly know what I want to do I just know I don't want to do what we're doing but he has no problem with it. So he tells me to find something to do but I want us to do something together but as I keep pointing out he is completely content. I mean he gives me ideas and I say no to most of them because they don't sound fun and then he just gets fed up. According to him why should I have to ruin his fun because I'm bored. One solution that came up is me finding a hobby but that might be hard because I don't know what I like to do. Just whatever is fun I'm open to ideas. Reading could be a possible hobby but one can only read for so long. Oh and another thing he kinda likes to stay at home which I kinda don't like. I mean can we go out and do something? Your home all the time don't you want something different? More stimulating perhaps? And we plan on getting married sometime in the future so is this how it's gonna be? I mean if it is we're just gonna have to deal with it but.....I don't know. I guess I'll just have to think on it.......

The Update on Nothing

Summers almost over and I think Im ready to go back to school. I really want to focus these next 2 years. Let me first give a shout out to my homie J Hardy who will be turning 21 on the 15th of this month. Now back to business everything with me has been about the same except I got my braces off and my hair dyed....lets just say sexy lol....anyways but other than that nothing. I wish I had more going on but what can I say. I should have gotten a job this summer or taken summer classes but oh well. In the future I really want to finish school on time. I want to be a better girlfriend. And ultimately I just want things to be a little easier for me (but who doesn't?). I give up too easily but thats something else entirely. On another note I feel like there is nothing new in my little sphere of the world. I want to do and try new things go new places but I can't make it happen soon enough or even at all. I'd like to end this on a happy note but well i can't find any so until we meet again.....

Life, Heaven, and All That Sort of Thing

I could say I havent written in a while but you all know how its went so lets just get right into it. Ok so I'm out of school for the summer. My GPA is a 2.3 (yes disappointing I know). School is discouraging me I'm not doin as well as I want to and I believe I'm tryin. Enough said about that. My summer has been good so far. I've went to Worlds of Fun at least 3 times already and I've went swimming once. My relationship is going well almost 2 years. Except that his aunt doesn't like me because of a situation that happened in July. I don't really care for her either but I do kinda want his family members to like me but what can I do. Oh yeah and recently my Grandma died May 24,2008. Of course I was sad but I think I was ready for it. In more current events yesterday at my boyfriends house with my friends we were drinking. I got a little tipsy and it really wasn't that bad. Except one of my other friends got really drunk and lets just say it was an interesting night. So on to the the topic for the day in response to Jessica's blog on May 21st. Why is heaven imaginary? Because you can't see or touch it? And God hath not forced anything upon us. We are in control of ourselves we have free will we make our own choices. I don't want to go too deep into this because this blog would go on for days. And why you don't want to be positive is a mystery to me. Being positive is not about rainbows and butterflies and actin like things don't exist it's about although things are bad you don't get depressed about life you just take it in stride and seein things from a different perspective not a distorted one. This is where I think Ill end this and any questions, comments, or concerns feel free to write.

Same

So as usual it been a while since Ive written. I just havent had anything worthwhile to write about and I still dont but here goes anyways. 2nd semester of sophomore year is comin to a close and spring break is approaching and needless to say i cant wait. I just purchased a new phone I am pretty excited about. Me and the boyfriend are doin good passed the year and a half mark. The family is the same. My sis is the same.

A future????

What does the future hold? Many of us have pondered this question before. When I think of the future (that being after endless amounts of school) I see myself starting a career, getting married/being a newlywed, and starting a family. This sounds like the typical kind of future that everyone wants but have you ever stopped to think what if it doesn't happen the way you plan? What brings this about is the fact that my boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year and a half. This is my sophmore year of college and we plan on getting married when I finish school. Thats just it though, finishing school could not be for a couple years. After my 4 years at Northwest to become a Veterinarian I need to go to Vet school for probably another 4 years. Lately, my boyfriend has been wondering how we're gonna to survive the next few years until I get outta school because we're already missing each other so much now. And the places I plan on goin to Vet school at arent any closer. My point of view is that I know it's goin to be hard but if we go into with the mindset that this is going to work it'll be ok if we really love each other. Though there will be temptations and what not I feel if our love is strong it shouldnt matter the temptations we may face. What I am scared of though is that as our relationship progresses through the years the distance will cause our relationship to weaken and it will come to an end. Honestly, I guess Im not really worried about the future because I know me and I am not one to cheat no matter what the circumstance. I guess what Im most worried about is his trust and faith in me and that he'll stay faithful. All I can really say is that we'll just have to see what the future holds.