Update

I haven't really kept you guys up to date on my life but I'm sure you are used to it. Well summer is almost over and school is approaching. I never really got out of school mode because I'm currently taking two summer classes. We'll see if I'm burnt out on school by the fall. I can't say that I'm dreading going back though. It's my senior year and I plan on graduating. I also plan on getting married around August 28, 2010. So many big events coming up in my life. I'm kinda nervous. I hope I am prepared for both. I don't want any suprises. But I guess thats life.
As always I'm a working in progress. I'm trying to change my demeanor. I need to be more patient, not quick to anger, and less selfish and more selfless.

I found this definition of patience online: bearing or enduring without complaint. This totally is the opposite of me. If I wait for long periods of time I complain, if things don't happen as soon as I want I get mad. This is not a good look.
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.
James 1:2-4 KJV

It seems that I get mad easily. It's those little annoyances that make me so mad. Most of the time its passive aggressive anger but I can get hostile. People don't want to be around someone who is angry all the time and it just causes undue hostility where there was none. And this ladies and gentlemen is definitely not a good look.
Slowness to anger makes for deep understanding; a quick-tempered person stockpiles stupidity.
Prov. 14:29 Message

Last but definitely not least. I can be really selfish. I mean I could make the excuse that I can't help it because I feel like I have to put myself first or no one else will. But that is no reason for me to be selfish to the people I love and who have given unselfishly to me. Needless to say, not a good look.
Don't be misled: No one makes a fool of God. What a person plants, he will harvest. The person who plants selfishness, ignoring the needs of others—ignoring God!—harvests a crop of weeds. All he'll have to show for his life is weeds! But the one who plants in response to God, letting God's Spirit do the growth work in him, harvests a crop of real life, eternal life.
Gal 6:7 Message

This is just the stuff that has been on my mind.

Music Monday

This is my Michael Jackson tribute. RIP MJ

Music Monday

This is my song. I wish I could get the unedited version.

Another cut!!

Yet another cut but I think I'll stop there.

TMI Tuesday #194

TMI Tuesday #194

1. Where was the first place you ever had sex?
Ummm

2. How often do you lie?
I try not to lie too much but if I do it's only when it's absolutely necessary ;)

3. If you could only be one, would you rather be smart or good looking?
Smart

4. Have you ever passed out or suffered memory loss from drinking too much?
I know I haven't suffered memory loss but passing out hmmmm idk Jess?

5. Top or bottom?
Top

Bonus: Do you have any catalogs for toys/videos/lingere delivered to your home?
No I still live with the parentals so...

Wednesday Weirdness #60

Wednesday Weirdness #60
Questions By: Anonymous
1.) To you, what makes the perfect body the perfect body?
A nice hot little ass.. with stacks and stacks of rippling muscles overlapping the others.

2.) What part of your body do you obsess about the most?
My big fat ass.

3.) What makes a house a warm, welcoming, comfortable home?
The sex toys on the mantle.

4.) What fabric feels sexiest against bare skin?
Silk. Lace, but nothing feels better than cold steel.

5.) What is the lamest lie you have heard in the last month?
"Honey, I have a headache."

6.) What always makes you feel better when you're upset?
Masturbating to my favourite song.

Wednesday Weirdness #58 Hypotheticals Round Two

WW #58: Hypotheticals Round Two

Questions Courtesy Of: Ruby Rose (again, thank you!) & Bella Dreamer

1.) If you had to either shop for your groceries in your underwear only (bra&panties or boxers/briefs/whatever) or run streaking through the mall totally naked for no less than 4 minutes, which will you pick?

I would definitely run through the mall naked for 4 minutes. That way im not slowly looking for food in my underwear. I'm running so you can't get a good glimpse of my goodies.

2.) You're having dinner at the inlaws (your boyfriend/girlfriend's parents if not married) and the food is so awful you would rather eat the table cloth. Your mother in law (bf/gf mother) calls you out and asks if there is anything wrong with the food. You can't say you're "just not that hungry" because you had earlier claimed to be "starving" so now, how do you respond to her?

I say nothing is wrong with the food. I'm just so hungry I want to take my time. I then excuse myself to the bathroom a couple times and spit the food in the toilet.

3.) In the middle of foreplay, your partner asks if you want to try something new. You ask what it is. They want to stick some kind of frozen fruit or vegetable up your anus. How open to trying this are you?

I say heck no. Stop being weird. It might actually turn me off and we have to stop.

4.) Would you rather have to walk 30 feet over burning hot coals or walk 70 feet over broken shards of glass? Why?

30 feet because it's a shorter distance. The less of 2 evils.

5.) Would you rather have to have sex with your partner with a room full of your former highschool classmates watching or have sex with your partener in a room full with a mix of each of your former exes watching?

Definitely in front of my high school friends because in front of both our exes just won't work. I already have issues with that as it is.

TMI Tuesday #189-Dating Edition

TMI Tuesday #189 - Dating edition

1. What was the last movie you saw on a date?
Define date. My fiancee' and I went to go see Angels and Demons

2. What was the last meal you had on a date?
Um...I don't if what I do could be called dating. But I guess Applebees.

3. When was the last time you made out in the car on a date? More?
My fiancee' and I make out in the car usually on red lights.

4. Using a dating websites do you think you are more likely to find a "hook up" or a relationship?
Probably more hook ups

5. Do you have any special "first" date rituals? Flowers, certain restaurant, ect.
Um.. not really. I'm way past the first date stage but I'd have to say a ritual on any date should be to shower and put on some light perfume.

BONUS QUESTION: Do you believe in sex on the first date? Can a relationship bloom if you have sex on the first date?
I do not believe in sex on a first date. Usually I don't think a relationship can happen from sex on the first date but there are exceptions.