What Happenin'

Well once again it's been a while since I wrote. Where to start...... School. My second semester of college is over and sadly I didn't get the 3.0 but it's ok because there's gon be next year. Over the summer I worked for my school in a program called Challenge U. It helps kids in grades 8-12 want to go to college and see what college is like. My job was a youth leader. I was assigned between 2-4 kids to kind of be their mentor and lead and teach them about college life. It was an okay experience but the better experience was the 1,300 check I got. My major at Northwest Missouri State University is Veterinary Med. and as I look at the course load I have to take to graduate I start second guessing if this is really the career path I want to take. It's not that I don't think I can do it, it's just that I'm not sure I want to do all the work but what are my other options? Next, the boyfriend he's been doing pretty good for himself . Got a job and a car. It's going on a year on the 28th and I'm still happy yet I can't help but wonder is this too good to be true.... I'll be going off to school on the 26 and this time he's not coming with me. All the normal questions arise... Will the long distance thing work? Do I want to try? Is it worth it? I guess only time will tell. We're both hoping for the best. Now, my sister she's still MIA at home but she lives with her friend Lisa. She is a lesbian. Yet, I don't see her this way she is still the same sister I knew before I went to college. Our relationship has obviously changed and I'm realizing maybe I'm not as close to her as I should have been in the beginning. I have to take it in stride though and try to do my best with how we are right now. I feel/know she's not happy with life right know even though she's not in the home. It seems she doesn't have any peace in life. My family and friend seem pretty good. I'm tryin to hang with them before I go back to school on saturday. I can't wait to leave so I can be free. My curfew at home is 1:00am. This is starting to become a real nuisance! None, and I mean none of my friends have curfews. So you can imagine how I look spoiling everyone's fun because I have to be in at a certain time. I'm about to be 20 yrs old (no longer a teenager) and I'm in college where I have no parents I'm in control of me yet i still have a curfew. It's ridiculous. While we're on the subject of parentals my boyfriend and I are talking about moving in together next summer and I guess we'll see how they take that. On another note, I feel like I'm learning so much in life and that I'm maturing but I haven't taken the time to sit and think about things and situations to really discover the value of them. Too many times I feel like people just live life on the surface and don't take the time to think about and evaluate things. Those people I believe are truely missing out on life.