I now have three kids and have been married for three years. Sometimes I feel trapped in the life I chose for myself. I love my family. Sometimes I wish that I was single with no real responsibility. It almost feels like regret.
Regret? Dictionary.com defines this word in many ways, the one that seems most applicable is:
3. a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.
Seems simple enough right?
I miss my freedom. In times where I just want to get away, I have to make arrangements and depend on others. I don't want to have to answer to anybody. I am not one to complain because I know I'm blessed but it gets overwhelming. I'm also not one to ask for help because I do not want to give anyone anything to hold over my head.
So where does this leave me? Trapped. Perhaps by my own mindset. Trapped. Perhaps by my environment. Trapped. Perhaps by the expectations of others. Trapped. Because I want to be?
