Are congratulations in order???

So I'm 5 months pregnant and intially I wasn't excited. A baby is a LOT of work. I just thought I had more time. As I'm going along and I start feeling the baby move and I get ready to find out the sex I'm getting more excited. One thing that I am really unhappy about is getting behind in school. I don't think I'm going to take any classes this fall. Maybe I'll pick back up in the spring. It scares me because I don't want to take a break and never go back. I also like to think I am a very focused person. It makes me nervous that I won't finish and make my goals. I don't want this baby to hinder me from doing anything. There are still a lot of things I want to do. I can see this baby being the end of my progress.
Then my marriage isn't exactly financially stable and with a baby it'll be even harder to make it be. So much to worry about.
I wish I could see the future.

Ready to get up Out

I live with my mother in law and husband. They share bills. I'm sick of it. Bout to start a family and have made no progress. He has no job. I work part time. He is up their ass all the time. Thinking he just has no rush and all the time in the world. Well excuse me sir, I live in reality. I come home to everything that belongs to someone else. I'm ready to be independent. I must be the only one.

We Are NOT Invincible

So yesterday I found out something crazy about someone I'm close to. It makes me think so much. We really have to be careful in life because we never know what could happen to us when we don't think. Thats why I try to be so careful. The sayin that you only live once. I never really agreed with that. Because to me when people say that it's gives them an excuse to get reckless. We are not invincible.
The person that I'm close to just found out they have HIV.
I was speechless when I heard. When they came home I knew something was wrong because the person didn't say hi when they walked in. Come to find out later that they are in they're room crying.
When I find out, I can't help but think of the stereotypes about people with HIV. I don't want to run away everytime I see this person. But it's hard because I've never dealt with someone like this before and I'm wonderin if I can still treat this person the same.
I suppose nows the time read and educate myself on the subject. Thank goodness that medicine has advanced the way it has. And that people are living better lives. It's still so crazy to me. I'm waiting for someone to say it was all a joke.
I know thats not going to happen.....