1+2=3

It appears that I forgot to mention that I have 3 kids now. Last you heard I was pregnant with my oldest daughter.  Well I have Boy/Girl Twins that I had 10/14/13. They are 1 now and doing wonderful. Dealing with twins is difficult but rewarding and I wouldn't be as sane as I am without my husband being very involved. It is so interesting to see all my kids different personalities. The boy twin (BT) is more laid back and calm but he is becoming more vocal and laughing more. The girl twin (GT) is more out going, assertive, and emotional. Both twins seem pretty smart and you can tell they are learning. One of the daycare teachers said that GT is "smart, sometimes too smart." I'll take that as a compliment. My oldest daughter (OD) is 3, she is pretty outgoing and a little dramatic. She's always jumping, climbing, or looking to do the next thing. She is seems pretty smart as well. She notices more than I realize. I'm seriously thinking about putting her in gymnastics or dance classes.


I never thought that I would have kids so soon. I was 23 when I had OD. I used to always say that I didn't want kids but what I think I really meant was that I didn't want kids at that time in my life. Sometimes I wish I didn't have kids but I think that after a while I would feel like something was missing. I didn't realize the random joy and fulfillment kids bring on a day to day basis. If I didn't have kids I think I would be just looking for the next exciting or new thing. I think that kids fill that void and so much more. I am so glad that my friends have kids not only so that my kids have someone to play with but so that my friends can experience the joy I feel everyday with my kids.

I'm the Grinch!

At work right now in a somewhat jolly mood so thought I'd write a little something. So Christmas is over and it was great. One of my favorite holidays. The kids got a lot of gifts from me and other family members. I'm blessed. On the holidays my husband, the kids, and I usually visit his Mother and my Aunty. Last year at my Aunts we drew names for Secret Santa's and everyone made a list of three things that they wanted and put a 25 dollar limit. Everyone exchanged gifts. I felt as if my person was satisfied with my gift but I feel like I could of given something better. When asked if we want to do Secret Santa again my husband and I said no. My Uncle felt as if we were being a Grinch to not want to give gifts for a mere limit of 25 dollars.


>>I feel as if I do not know some of my aunts and uncles I see JUST on holidays enough to get a thoughtful gift regardless of what they put on the list. I enjoy Christmas and don't just give gifts out of obligation. I try to give out of love.
>The response to that was to get a gift card. And that having one person to give to saves money.
>>No one wants a gift card every year. And to me that says that you did not think enough about the person to get a thoughtful gift. Even though there are certain occasions when gift cards are okay. I think gift cards should be used in collaboration with another gift. Also you do not know everyone's financial situation to assume they should be able to give.  If I didn't get anything for Christmas and the kids got everything. I'd be fine.


I did not argue because it is pointless to do so because nothing I say will change anyone's mind. I think that Christmas is mainly about the kids anyway. If they want to do Secret Santa they can. I also feel that because I like to give good gifts I was pressured on what to buy because I really didn't know the person. SO I guess next year everyone will be happy with gift cards. Merry Christmas!


In other news it's my birthday. Excited to turn up! My plans are to drink the night away.

Thanksgiving.Cards gone wild.

Rarely do I find the time and energy to spill out all my emotions in a blog. But it's been asked of me to write a few words.

I actually had Thanksgiving and Black Friday off. So I spent that time to with my family (meaning my husband and kids). I work nights during the weekend from 10pm to 8 am. So needless to say that when my family is at home I am sleep preparing to work that night. I am off 3 days during the week. After the kids and hubby get home from daycare and work I only have a few hours to spend with them before they have to go to bed early to wake up the next day and do it all again.  

Which brings me back to having Thanksgiving off and Black Friday off. It was great to actually be able to play and spend time with the husband and kids for a change. I was not aware how much I really missed being with them, especially my husband. Getting into the routine of things sometimes makes me feel like family is chore but having that time makes me realize that it is more than that and to be grateful. 

It just made me think of the fact that I married my husband for a reason. I actually like him! Lol. We used to try to have date nights once a month and we did for a few months but now it is not really in the budget too much anymore. He says that he misses me and quiet as it's kept I miss him too. He wants me to find a job working during the week which I understand. I don't mind working nights that introvert in me loves it actually. I would probably be up anyways. And my job is usually not that stressful. But for the sake of my family I will look for jobs that have better days and hours. 

Also, I believe that I've discovered that I do not want to work in my field. I do not believe that I have the personality to be a successful therapist and I have found that I do not like the structure of the field. Honestly, at this point it I feel like it's too late and expensive to go back to school. I often say that I want to find a job that I like and I believe that I can . I like working with people with disabilities. I recently had an appointment with a temp service to see if they could help me find some jobs. They haven't told me anything yet.

My favorite holiday Christmas is coming up. I just love the atmosphere, the music, and the warm feelings I get. I actually like getting presents for others when I am able. I recently decided to get a credit card. Apparently I have a pretty good credit score (Who knew?)and received a limit in the thousands. I originally wanted to use this card for necessities mainly gas and groceries. I have used the card for that but also Christmas presents. My family (aunts, uncles, and cousins) have a secret Santa person to get gifts for this year and everyone will get gifts for the kids. Currently my credit card balance is at around 500. Of course I will pay what I owe but I do not want continue to have a balance on the card. I do not like the idea of a credit card and I have been against getting one for a long time but I thought that it would be helpful in emergency situations and such. I have not received the first bill yet so we will see.