Merry Birthday to Me

Today is my 21st birthday. And I have no idea what I am going to do. Tonight I was with my boyfriend and we drank Smirnoff to prepare for this day. Just a little something light to get started. Im excited to see what will happen.

December 26: Uncle and I got into a little physical altercation.

Now let's rewind back to Christmas. We ate. I got clothes, boots, jewelry, gift cards, purse, and 50 dollars. Then I went to my boyfriends and we ate and I got the rest of my presents. I bought him a Fossil watch.

These are the boots I got.

This is some of the jewelry I got. My boyfriend got me all of this except the earrings in the top left corner. I had another pair of earrings I forgot to put in but you get the point.

My boyfriend got me some Burberry London perfume.

He also got me some movies. These all seem so random but he got me Sleepy Hollow because I like Johnny Depp, he got me Eddie Murphy because I said I wanted one time when we were in Target, and he got me Must Love Dogs because I like and animals and it seemed like a chick flick.

I basically put on here everything I got for Christmas. And I have a confession, I only got one of my friends a Christmas gift and not the other but shhh don't tell nobody. JLH the one I did get one for her present is kinda small but useful. I wish I could give more. The friend that I didnt get one for said she wanted a gift card to Wal-Mart but I just aint got the funds....then again I got a gift card to Wal-Mart for Christmas....hmmm decisions decisions.

Seven Pounds of Gifts

Ok so Saturday I hung out with my man. We actually had plans. We were gonna go out to eat and then to the movies. He wouldn't tell me where we were going out to eat at though. It really made me mad. I wanted to know but I liked that it was sort of a suprise. Well it ended up being Olive Garden. It was delicious. I love their bread. Afterwards we had plans to go to the movies but we finished eating early so we walked around Ward Parkway because our movie didn't start til 7:15. I bought some personal items and a gift for a certain someone. So we finally got to the movie. We went to see Seven Pounds, starring Will "he just don't know" Smith. It was a good movie. Kind of a tear jerker if you do that kind of thing. Now I know im not the only one wondering why this movie is titled Seven Pounds. Well I found the answer.

The title "Seven Pounds" refers to the Shakespearean pound-of-flesh metaphor, meaning a figurative debt that needs to be paid back.

Makes sense because Will helps 7 people.

Anyways moving on. Today Im suppose to go with my boyfriends mom to get his Christmas present. Im so low on funds. He told me he spent over 100 on me but I probably will barely spend half of that on him. I plan to get him gloves, wallet, and a watch. Hopefully if those items are reasonably priced. Maybe his mom can chip in too. ;) I still have two other people to buy gifts for and I must say it's not looking good. Oh and on an ending note. My 21st is in 4 days.

At First Sight By: Nicholas Sparks

Ok you know how I said earlier I need a new book to read? Well I found one. It's like the sequel to the book I just finished. It's called At First Sight.
AT FIRST SIGHT
There are a few things Jeremy Marsh was sure he’d never do: he’d never leave New York City; never give his heart away after barely surviving one failed marriage; and never become a parent. Now Jeremy is living in the tiny town of Boone Creek, North Carolina, engaged to Lexie Darnell, the love of his life, and anticipating the start of their family. But just as his life seems to be settling into a blissful pattern, a mysterious and disturbing e-mail sets off a chain of events that will change the course of this young couple’s relationship.
How well do we really know the ones we love? How do we handle the inevitable doubts, fears concerning parenthood, and stumbling blocks that are sometimes placed in our way? Continuing the story of the young couple introduced in Sparks’s bestselling True Believer, this novel captures all the heartbreak, tension, romance and surprises of those who are newly wed.
An astonishing tale about the love between a man and a woman and between a parent and a child, AT FIRST SIGHT is about endings that bring new beginnings . . . tragedies that lead to unexpected joy . . . and, most of all, the magic of everlasting love.
http://www.nicholassparks.com/Novels/AtFirstSight/Flap.html

Now if I could only find a way to get it.

Disappointing News

So my boyfriend didn't get the job. It really sucks. They told him he had a good interview they just thought someone elses interview was better. Whatever. I guess it just wasn't his time but his will come. He's for the most part a good person and a good worker. His sells are always the highest in his office and he won't settle for less. I know something better will come along.
Some more disappointing news on my end is I finished my book. This is disappointing not because the book was bad(which it wasn't) but because now what am I to do with my life. It kept me occupied while Sauda did the boring crap he does. I need to get another book but I don't know when I would be able to do that.

True Believer By: Nicholas Sparks

So I started my book True Believer I am getting ready to read the 8th chapter out of 22. Here's a little background info.

TRUE BELIEVER
Jeremy Marsh is the ultimate New Yorker: handsome, almost always dressed in black, and part of the media elite. An expert on debunking the supernatural with a regular column in Scientific American, he's just made his first appearance on national TV. When he receives a letter from the tiny town of Boone Creek, North Carolina, about ghostly lights that appear in a legend-shrouded cemetery, he can't resist driving down to investigate.
Here, in this tightly knit community, Lexie Darnell runs the town's library, just as her mother did before the accident that left Lexie an orphan. Disappointed by past relationships, including one that lured her away from home, she is sure of one thing: her future is in Boone Creek, close to her grandmother and all the other people she loves.
Jeremy expects to spend a quick week in "the sticks" before speeding back to the city. But from the moment he sets eyes on Lexie, he is intrigued and attracted to this beautiful woman who speaks with a soft drawl and confounding honesty. And Lexie, while hesitating to trust this outsider, finds herself thinking of Jeremy more than she cares to admit.
Now, if they are to be together, Jeremy Marsh must make a difficult choice: return to the life he knows, or do something he's never done before--take a giant leap of faith.
A story about taking chances and following your heart, True Believer will make you, too, believe in the miracle of love.

http://www.nicholassparks.com/Novels/TrueBeliever/Flap.html

Goings On

Im REALLY not feeling this but I promised JLH I'd do this. I can not guarantee the quality of this blog. Well there's 12 days til Im 21 and Im kinda excited. 10 days til Christmas and I have no idea what to get people. Plus I'm low on funds. I brought a book home that I can read in my spare time during break. It's called True Believer by: Nicholas Sparks. I havent started it yet. Yesterday Sauda and I went to church and then out to eat at 54th Street. After that we just chilled at his house. Tomorrow Sauda has an interview for a promotion to Assistant Manager at a Enterprise in North kc. I hope he gets it. That means more money for us lol. No Im kidding I just hope he gets it cuz ti's what he's been waiting for and I know he'd be disappointed if he didn't. I'm kinda on the go right now and I have to get ready so ill write more later.
So Im back. I went to my friend Shenell's house today and we chilled. We really never do nothing but her personality makes it fun. First, we watched Mr. Bean (which I thought was really weird, and kind of disturbing), Second, we tried for at least an hour to learn the Dougie dance (I think I almost got it), and Third we watched funny videos on youtube. In between those we ate eggs, and this spicy African food with rice (it's so good everytime I have it). I got home around 1:30 AM. My uncle called me upstairs. "What are you and Sauda doin til 1 and 2 in the morning?"
"I was with Shenell. And this is the first time I've come home at 1."
" I see you 5 minutes a day. Your out every night. Sleep all day. What did you do around the house? Be more productive."
" Ok goodnight"
He really pisses me off. Like if I pick up the house before I leave I can stay out later. Obviously they don't get the hint I'm always gone because I don't want to be there. They don't tell their worthless son to pick up nothing. He's the reason the house is dirty because I'm never there. They're lucky I come home. I always feel like they think Im always doin something wrong. When in actuality I dont do jack and their kids have probably done way worse things than I have. If I could move out on my own I would. Im sick of this.

And The Results Are In

Ok so I've finished my finals for this semester and I have to say I am pretty happy with my grades.
(From highest to lowest)
Final Grades
Sociology-103.75 A
Developmental Psychology-101.40 A
Family Relationships-95.58 A
History of Dance- A (This is an estimated grade I don't know the percentage yet)
Statistics-75.80 C
___________________
Semester GPA 3.6
This raises my cumulative GPA to 2.6

Now these are the classes I am taking for the Spring 09 semester.

Personal Adjustment
Abnormal Psychology
Intro. to Psych Experimentation
Cognitive Psychology
Learning and Motivation
Social Psychology

That semester should be pretty hard but I think I can pull the same grades as this semester.I really wanna get a 3.0 so I can go to grad school.

Legs, Finals, and Other Randomness

My leg is killing me. It's not even that serious of a pain but it's been a constant light pain for the last couple days. Finals week is upon us and my last final is Thursday but I'm stayin til friday because I have to take my friend Mark to the airport. I've got 2 finals out of the way so far and 3 more left. I have one at 11:50here soon so this might be short. I'm kind happy to go home and not do work and kick it wit the homies particulary JLH (never let go)but you can't usually get JLH without ENW which s-u-c-k-s. It is sooo cold outside but i think it's the wind thats killing me. After my final I just wanna go stay in bed but I have to work 3-5 and study for my other finals lucky me. I wish I could detour off the road of organization like some people I know. Next semester should be fun Im takin 18 hrs which is the max you can take. Im tryin to catch up and graduate as soon as possible. I plan on graduating the summer of '10. Oh yea and just a random comment my friend Christina joined a sorority Delta Sigma Theta. Her mom was one of the founders of a chapter in Nebraska. Not that that had anything to do with nothing but whatever. Oh I was watching Jamie Foxx I might need security this weekend and it was too funny. Well I think thats all for now

Randomness

I just feel like writing, I do not have a topic, so this is going to be pretty random. I love to listen to music this is the video of a song I've been feeling lately.


Oh and I cant forget Jamie (he just dont know) Foxx.


I just got outta class and it is snowing and ish, cold as heck and im not happy about it. I also straightened my hair last night and everytime I do it snows or rains. It makes me mad.


Yea so taking a break from all the pics. Oh did I mention Christmas break is coming up soon? I am freaking excited. Although I have no idea what I am getting people but I know more what I want. Oh and my birthday on the 27th I want to do it big. Dave and Busters, Club (Voodoo Lounge in Harrah's Casino), Go out to eat(Cheesecake Factory), Plaza, and of course drink it up!
In other news I have an on campus job in the Registrar's office and we have to be back early from break. On the friday before class starts on January 9th it sucks. Yea well im getting kinda hungry so I will hit this up later. Holla.

Breathless Memories

So I had an ok Thanksgiving. Nothing too exciting, ya know the usual. My aunt cooked a plethora of items, we ate, then I went to my boyfriends and ate there. I went to the movies to see Role Models and it was kinda funny... whispering eye he heh. Another fun thing I did over break was get sick. It started with a sore throat and has now become a full blown cold. It sucks yes. Oh and it's snowing which REALLY sucks. I hate snow...really just cold weather in general. But on the upside this semester is almost over and Christmas break is upon us... 2 weeks. AND... my birthday is in 26 days....heck yea 21. In other news I found one of my homies from high school on myspace. And I had heard that her cousin (who I was also cool with) died but I couldn't believe it until I saw her myspace name that read: "RIP Marcha Teaz Semens..." I was floored to finally have the reality of it in my face. I continued to look at the pics of Jennifer at the funeral and the pics of the good times they'd had. And always when something like this happens to someone you know it always makes you think. It's crazy for me to think I used to see this person, touch this person, and interact with this person and now I will never see them, touch them or interact with them EVER again. And when I think of this person from now on they will be nothing more than a lifeless form void of breathe, life, or mobility. This person ceases to exist. No new memories or experiences...NOTHING. It's almost amazing to me the finality of death. But life goes on. You just live in your moment but when that moment ends, the world continues to spin. Dictionary.com defines death this way: "the act of dying; the end of life; the total and permanent cessation of all the vital functions of an organism." I think it's the permanent part that kills (no pun intended) me. I think I will have to continue on this topic later because many other questions arise in my mind about but this blog would be way too expansive if I were to discuss all of them. And because I feel like I've said enough for now I will end it here.

Let's Just Jump Right In

I am not easily amused. This is somewhat of a problem in my relationship with my boyfriend of 2 years. We argue because he is always content watching tv, playing madden, or just sitting around. Me on the other hand I want to do different stuff sometimes and I get bored and tell him, "Lets do something im bored." You see the problem is he is perfectly content doing whatever it is he is doing so when I keep telling him I'm bored he gets annoyed not only because of that but because I never have any ideas of what else to do. I mean I don't exactly know what I want to do I just know I don't want to do what we're doing but he has no problem with it. So he tells me to find something to do but I want us to do something together but as I keep pointing out he is completely content. I mean he gives me ideas and I say no to most of them because they don't sound fun and then he just gets fed up. According to him why should I have to ruin his fun because I'm bored. One solution that came up is me finding a hobby but that might be hard because I don't know what I like to do. Just whatever is fun I'm open to ideas. Reading could be a possible hobby but one can only read for so long. Oh and another thing he kinda likes to stay at home which I kinda don't like. I mean can we go out and do something? Your home all the time don't you want something different? More stimulating perhaps? And we plan on getting married sometime in the future so is this how it's gonna be? I mean if it is we're just gonna have to deal with it but.....I don't know. I guess I'll just have to think on it.......

The Update on Nothing

Summers almost over and I think Im ready to go back to school. I really want to focus these next 2 years. Let me first give a shout out to my homie J Hardy who will be turning 21 on the 15th of this month. Now back to business everything with me has been about the same except I got my braces off and my hair dyed....lets just say sexy lol....anyways but other than that nothing. I wish I had more going on but what can I say. I should have gotten a job this summer or taken summer classes but oh well. In the future I really want to finish school on time. I want to be a better girlfriend. And ultimately I just want things to be a little easier for me (but who doesn't?). I give up too easily but thats something else entirely. On another note I feel like there is nothing new in my little sphere of the world. I want to do and try new things go new places but I can't make it happen soon enough or even at all. I'd like to end this on a happy note but well i can't find any so until we meet again.....

Life, Heaven, and All That Sort of Thing

I could say I havent written in a while but you all know how its went so lets just get right into it. Ok so I'm out of school for the summer. My GPA is a 2.3 (yes disappointing I know). School is discouraging me I'm not doin as well as I want to and I believe I'm tryin. Enough said about that. My summer has been good so far. I've went to Worlds of Fun at least 3 times already and I've went swimming once. My relationship is going well almost 2 years. Except that his aunt doesn't like me because of a situation that happened in July. I don't really care for her either but I do kinda want his family members to like me but what can I do. Oh yeah and recently my Grandma died May 24,2008. Of course I was sad but I think I was ready for it. In more current events yesterday at my boyfriends house with my friends we were drinking. I got a little tipsy and it really wasn't that bad. Except one of my other friends got really drunk and lets just say it was an interesting night. So on to the the topic for the day in response to Jessica's blog on May 21st. Why is heaven imaginary? Because you can't see or touch it? And God hath not forced anything upon us. We are in control of ourselves we have free will we make our own choices. I don't want to go too deep into this because this blog would go on for days. And why you don't want to be positive is a mystery to me. Being positive is not about rainbows and butterflies and actin like things don't exist it's about although things are bad you don't get depressed about life you just take it in stride and seein things from a different perspective not a distorted one. This is where I think Ill end this and any questions, comments, or concerns feel free to write.

Same

So as usual it been a while since Ive written. I just havent had anything worthwhile to write about and I still dont but here goes anyways. 2nd semester of sophomore year is comin to a close and spring break is approaching and needless to say i cant wait. I just purchased a new phone I am pretty excited about. Me and the boyfriend are doin good passed the year and a half mark. The family is the same. My sis is the same.

A future????

What does the future hold? Many of us have pondered this question before. When I think of the future (that being after endless amounts of school) I see myself starting a career, getting married/being a newlywed, and starting a family. This sounds like the typical kind of future that everyone wants but have you ever stopped to think what if it doesn't happen the way you plan? What brings this about is the fact that my boyfriend and I have been together for almost a year and a half. This is my sophmore year of college and we plan on getting married when I finish school. Thats just it though, finishing school could not be for a couple years. After my 4 years at Northwest to become a Veterinarian I need to go to Vet school for probably another 4 years. Lately, my boyfriend has been wondering how we're gonna to survive the next few years until I get outta school because we're already missing each other so much now. And the places I plan on goin to Vet school at arent any closer. My point of view is that I know it's goin to be hard but if we go into with the mindset that this is going to work it'll be ok if we really love each other. Though there will be temptations and what not I feel if our love is strong it shouldnt matter the temptations we may face. What I am scared of though is that as our relationship progresses through the years the distance will cause our relationship to weaken and it will come to an end. Honestly, I guess Im not really worried about the future because I know me and I am not one to cheat no matter what the circumstance. I guess what Im most worried about is his trust and faith in me and that he'll stay faithful. All I can really say is that we'll just have to see what the future holds.